Play this vid while you read the post cos the song is exactly how i’m feeling right now. (Don’t bother about watching the video, i didn’t even like the movie.)
Today is a special day for me.
For some reason, the numbers 11/111/1111 have been surrounding me since June last year.
I thought i was going crazy for a while, what with all these new thoughts in my head.
On the way i live my life, the way i am, the person i want to be.
But like a girlfriend and i said last night:
People think we are crazy now,
but actually, we were crazy before to think life had to be within certain confinements.
I’ve been learning how to break free even more from convention, and confinement of my own thoughts.
I’m learning how to TRULY enjoy my own company.
It’s not that i’ve never… i’ve always liked my solitude.
But i’m just RELISHING in it these days.
After constantly being surrounded by people i love since Christmas, i finally got some alone time last Friday night. I stayed in, kept off the alcohol and smokes, and played with my hula hoop for hours. It was so great i ended up sleeping at 5:30am.
-_-
When time switched past midnight on January 11th, i realised the significance of the date. I told Aps, who was next me then, and i was so happy that my special day began with me spending time with her. God i love that girl so much. We haven’t spent one-on-one time with each other for months. She followed me to the garden area, where we could play with the hula hoops together and just hang out under the night sky with our music playing.
In the middle of our catching up, i jolted upright and said, “Do you remember the last time we were here? Right here in this spot together?”
She nodded.
The last and only time we’d been in that very spot, was almost 7 months ago. We had an emergency meet up cos we were both going through the end and the beginning of our break ups. I was crying, she was crying, we were a mess.
And now… i’m so proud to see the changes we went through, and the better we came out for it.
I’ve learnt how to be so much happier. How to make myself happy. How to put myself first. Not to listen to what other people think. To live life the way i want and feel no guilt. God i am so happy. There are days when sadness leaks in for no apparent reason, and i figure that must just be the polarity of my emotions having to take place, so i allow the sadness to be in me, to feel it then let it go. I try my best not to stifle my anger/frustration/sadness by letting it flow through me. It always goes away after a few days, then the rest of the time i’m really happy.
I’m so glad Aps came over. We got to really catch up about the adventures we’ve been having,
the new things we’ve been learning,
amazing things happening,
people we’ve been meeting,
funny incidences taking place,
and work we’d been doing.
I love talking about work with people. I used to not be that kinda person, but now i love talking and sharing about what we’ve all been learning from our work.
KinkyBlueFairy turns 11 years old next month. 11 years! This has been the longest-standing THING that i’ve been able to hold on to for so long. I played so many roles in the past – photographer, marketing exec, fashion editor, digital strategist – most of them lasting 2-4 years. Blogging has been the only thing i’ve been able to consistently do and finally… i just realised that i AM a blogger. (I know… i took so long to admit to myself that i’m a BLOGGER cos some idiots out there give the term a bad name.)
So yeah, approaching my 11th year of blogging (i’m telling you, 1 has been my revolutionary number) i’m come to desire to change my format of blogging. Working on it. Things are moving faster at work cos Baby just joined us as manager. It’ll be so much better now i don’t have to manage the team and myself, she can help. Then i can focus back on my blogging and ALL THESE BACKLOGGED posts i need to get on pronto. It’s gonna be a great year.
So back to my special day! Aps hung out till about 3am, and i hung out by myself a bit more (can’t get enough of alone time now) till 5am and had to wake up at 11am (why do i do this to myself).
I went for a champagne brunch with Lexie at Shook, and felt a bit flu-ish when i woke up but it was too late to cancel. I really wanted to see her anyway, i had such a great week in the Philippines with her! We caught up, along with Sarah and Anu. I had 9 pieces of sashimi, soba, tako wasabi, the most tender beef brisket, lamb, carbonara pasta, fruits covered in strawberry chocolate from the choc fountain, 4 types of cake, jelly, and some caramel and apple mousse thing. I ate a lot. I ate so much i didn’t even have dinner and i don’t feel hungry (tho i might eat before i sleep :p).
The 11th also happens to be the first day i was single. I didn’t plan it… it just happened. Things were just moving toward that day for a while, and something in me changed on the 9th, which made me have to break up on the 10th of August. Now i have a lot more time to focus on myself, work, family and friendships.
Coincidentally, the new home i’m going to move into alone has the address of 111 (i don’t think it’s a coincidence, i think it’s meant to be. I felt RIGHT the moment i walked into that place.)
11:11pm just passed! And i spent it blogging! 😀
The day is coming to an end soon. OK i’m gonna go spend the rest of it playing with my hoop or something. TA!
Expect some late posts a-coming from stuff that happened in Dec!
My Love Bonito sweater with blue and purple prints matched perfectly with my aubergine Longchamp pliage cuir i seem to be carrying around every day now.
KinkyBlueFairy did the PR for the Love Bonito VIP Christmas Sale, where the fashion label closed off their Publika store all day and opened it in sessions for a handful of their esteemed customers to shop in pampered peace.
Energy Spa provided three therapists to give soothing hand spas, and relaxing back and shoulder massages.
As you’re reading this, i’m either in Manila or Boracay having a much-needed break where hopefully i don’t have to check my laptop for almost a week (i don’t think it’ll happen).
Because i can’t think of what to put, here are two random pictures from a recent photoshoot Sweet Ee and i did for The Met Salon‘s SS15 lookbook!
Hair by Randall Wong and Chuen
Photographed by Alexio Yeoh
Make up by Taisu Yoko
Styling by Max Mak and Nathan
Liquify can be your best friend.
I must (and will!) say that we’re looking pretty rocking from when we first started working together in 2013.
Showing up to the office in our pajamas and our bed heads XD
Thanks for an awesome year babe, i must have seen you more than ANYONE ELSE LAST YEAR.
Here’s to a freaking fabulous year for KBF <3
So much happened,
i went to so many places,
learnt so many new life lessons,
met hundreds/thousands of people,
and felt myself really CHANGE this year…
Looking back at my Instagram is the only way i get to swiftly see all i did.
[It’s almost 5am and i have to wake up at 8:30 to catch a flight!]
I spent New Year’s Day of 2014 in Bordeaux, and across the year visited:
Jakarta, Bangkok, Frankfurt, Paris, Bologna, Jeju, Sri Lanka, Phuket, Singapore, Sydney, Tokyo, Osaka;
and Seoul, Bali and London twice.
Locally i visited Penang, Kuching, Seremban, and Ipoh.
Weddings i attended:
Jason and Neena (i fell down),
Azwin and Azlina,
Aahana and Herukh,
Ben and Elizabeth,
Elaine and Nick,
Mary and Chek.
Serena gave birth to Chloe,
SueAnn to Baby Chongy,
Heleau to Lilou,
Steph to William,
Kay-Li to Rae-Lynn.
(There are probably more wedding and baby mentions i’m missing cos i can’t remember right now, don’t hate me!)
Leading up to Christmas, the KBF team were just drowning in all sorts of work (which i was expecting cos December is always like that!).
We’ve put up more things on our store www.kinkybluefairy.com It’s basically a selfish business cos i’m just buying all the things i want for myself :p
One random weekday before Xmas, i took a Singaporean friend Edward to Awanmulan so he could get a taste of Malaysian nature!
I stayed in Durian Runtuh, the newest addition to Awanmulan. Separate post coming later!
The Sunday right before Christmas, i had lunch with Tai Yong at Ippudo. We had a total pig out sesh. Tai Yong la… order so much. We had a big bowl of ramen each, meat buns, gyoza lasagna, and nutella gyoza.
On the left is the bouncy castle at Lust i really wanted to jump on but was wearing a dress.
Right: Tai Yong and i looking like happy kids after a 4-course meal.
After lunch we walked around Pavilion getting this and that. Super last minute Christmas shopping. I ended up buying stuff for myself at Henckels -_-
Tai Yong gave me a Henckels knife years ago, and this Christmas he gave me a Henckels knife sharpener! <3
Rahul came to join me when TY had to go to work, and it was really scary when we went into Parkson.
In the span of 20 minutes; i wanted new towels and bedsheets, a cool fuchsia floor lamp, a water pitcher, a porcelain deer head, a fancy pen, a mirrored vintage jewellery case, and all the lime green and pink Christmas decorations.
That place is evil.
I practically ran to find Rahul in the store,
and said, “Ok i’m done looking. I’m ready when you are. I can’t take it anymore!!”
On Tuesday i set about brining the turkey for Christmas Day.
I LOVE brining turkey.
It’s so much fun to chuck in dozens of herbs, spices, root and fruit into a gigantic pot.
The smell of orange and cloves and cinnamon and everything just smells so CHRISTMASY.
I couldn’t help ducking my entire head into it just to sniff it all in.
If someone bottled that scent i would wear it.
Christmas Brine.
So i left the turkey in the fridge for 2 days.
Also made the all spice sauce on Tues by simmering the turkey innards for 2 hours and whatnot.
Wed i prepped the chestnut stuffing and marinated the lamb legs.
Also went to the supermarket a few times, and ordered heavier stuff like potatoes and olive oil from Tesco cos they deliver right to my door.
On Christmas Day i woke up at 8am to groggily dry the turkey so it could go into the oven at 9am; after which were the chestnut stuffing, lamb, potatoes, etc. I even made out a timetable on what went in and out on dual levels. Okkk i didn’t plan to go so crazy and cook such a big meal… i didn’t even plan to cook till about a week before Christmas! My family and some friends didn’t seem to be doing ANYTHING, so i figured i might as well cook lunch for the family, then have friends (mostly single / no place to go on Christmas) over. As is typical of me, the invite list got a bit larger than planned then i went all out lest people didn’t have enough to eat!
Family came over at 1pm, and we started with organic hibiscus in champagne (thanks Shaun for the hibiscus!). It was so pretty cos the hibiscus opens slightly when you pour the bubbly in, it flavours the champagne, then you can eat the flower after! (i spotted it selling in Opika if you’re interested)
We forgot to take a picture of the turkey till Nick had cut both drumsticks off.
Mummy said to put it back and take a pic but i wasn’t bothered!
It came out nice and moist on the breast, but i think i didn’t dry the turkey properly so it didn’t roast a golden brown like before. Now i know…
Nick, Sonia, Daddy and Mummy
We had a really nice lunch, and friends started arriving at 3+
