Happy Chinese New Year everyone!!!
It’s my mum’s year cos she turns 60 this year!
I’ve been giving myself a break of sorts since doing my detox and colon hydrotherapy (i can’t wait to blog about it…it’s gonna be a long-ass post cos there’s so much info that i’ve been blabbering to people, i can just direct them to my blog instead of retelling the story XD)
It’s got me thinking so much about my direction in life. What i want my company to be about, what i want to promote/sell, how i want to impact others as well as myself, how i want to change myself for the better (work out more, lower my body fat percentage, start to meditate, practice hooping, control my emotions to be more positive at all times…). It’s a long list. I feel that this year (for me) is going to be a lot about me… working on myself, and taking care of myself better. I told Clem that we need to work on new hobbies, cos we spent too much of last year just partying :p
I had an RM30 voucher for MPH from some books i got for Christmas, and ducked into the Publika store to use my vouchers. I ended up spending RM240 more… (stores must love suckers like me who can’t let go off a voucher and end up spending more!!!)
For 5 books! That’s pretty good! I tend to switch between self-development, fiction and autobiography books so i don’t stop reading one if i’m not feeling it that day.
Random pic: Lucas’ birthday BBQ! I didn’t stay long cos i was still recuperating from my detox and needed to rest.
Just before CNY, i went to get my hair done at The Met.
As usual, Alex did my cut and Teng coloured.
At times like now when a mermaid colour is available, i wish a teensy bit that my hair was long so i could flip turquoise tresses till kingdom come.
My mum cooked two fantastic dinners for the family – one the night before CNY eve, cos my Ah Kiu was in town; and another last night for 3rd day of CNY. My favourites were the fried fish, veggies, supersoft mushrooms, steamed chicken, and black pepper pork. It’s pretty much almost everything on the table really. I must learn how to make that black pepper pork ribs… it’s one of my favourite dishes from when i was a kid and i haven’t eaten it for years!
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We spent a lot of time at the Loh Loh’s, playing with Cameron and trying to get him to take his first step (he’s so close! He can stand by himself for about 30 seconds now!).
I was so happy to visit him last week cos i hadn’t seen him since before we left for France, and he totally recognised me and laughed and laughed. It’s so fun but so tiring to entertain a baby! I felt so pooped after a couple of hours and told Cammy, “Damn. It’s so tiring with a baby!” And she said, “I know right. And i have help.” Ok i’m not in a hurry to have a baby now.
These were some crazy awesome peanut butter cookies Kenny’s mum got from Ipoh. I cut it up into pieces to snack on cos it’s THAT GOOD.
On 2nd Day of CNY, a bunch of us went to the Selangor Turf Club for the races!
Thanks for the invites Loh Lohs!
I blogged about us going last year too.
Lucas, Helo, Lion, me, Cammy, Kenny, Lion, Clem, Serena, Matt, Matt’s parents who are here for the hols.
Cammy and i 🙂
We yee sang-ed so canggih till Lucas spilled a whole beer XD
I didn’t take many pictures during the betting cos we were too busy studying the handbook in between drinking and eating XD
I’m a bit better at betting on horses now, i think! Before i would just check out their trainers/jockeys and history of wins. Now i take into account the length of each horse’s previous races, placings throughout the length, and estimate who would do well in, say, 1200, or 1400m.
But saying that, all those details can also go down the drain once we look at the horses making their appearance; or if you really like a particular horse’s name.
There was one called Positive Thinking (horse number 4), and Cammy and i decided to go for it JUST COS. And guess what, Positive Thinking came in first! Both of us were screaming and hugging as number 4 flew past the finish line! That was a good one, cos his chances were low so the winnings were higher! I put down RM10 on him and got RM216 return. Damn, i should have listened to that voice in my head that went “Put RM50 on Positive Thinking!” But i don’t bet big… i bet for fun so if i lose i know i’m okay losing. There was another winning horse i bet on, called Fox Treasure 🙂
Coming soon!
I got so many compliments about my dress that day! It’s from Singaporean label Zardoze. Clem is wearing his spanking new suit from Sacoor Brothers.
Sonia said it’s a really nice pic of us, and i retorted, “Yeah. It took 10 pictures to get a nice one.”
Here’s a preview of what i mean.
After the races, Kenny took us for dinner at this insanely ghetto Chinese restaurant in Taman Desa. It’s so ghetto all the workers are from mainland China and they don’t even speak Cantonese, only Mandarin! We had some sick lobster yee mee there.
Totally. Crave-worthy.
Must go back.
Clem and i came home after that, and took a taxi to Aps’ house for a gambling session she was holding. It was pretty crazy and i heard we all went home at 4:30am. Clem woke up on the sofa and i was relieved to discover i managed to shower. All in all, i won RM100 collectively at the races and Aps’ place! Yay! (Told you i wasn’t a big gambler haha).
Tomorrow i fly to Bangkok with Yishyene for our getaway together. We always try to travel together when i’m in Europe or she in Asia, and she’s NEVER BEEN TO BANGKOK CAN YOU IMAGINE (the first place i took her to was Bali) so it’s about time!
Linda of YESAH has collaborated with Fashion Textile designer / Illustrator Teresa Lim AKA TEETEEHEEHEE for their debut fashion apparel collection themed “Psychedelic Trip Under The Sea”.
Inspired by electronic and synth disco music (specifically Shapeshifter by Elephant, and Valley Vacation by Classixx), Linda conjured up imaginations of a lost mermaid, which became the main inspiration for the entire collection.
Along with Teresa, the two artists threw out ideas over late night coffees to mould and create a collection full of water coloured prints, sequins, and a tinge of magic. Included in the collection are an eye-catching beaded sparkle sea green flare skirt and a full watercolour printed set leggings and tank, making it something you won’t want to miss especially if you’re a lover of all things magical, quirky, colourful AND printed!
Linda is giving KinkyBlueFairy readers a discount 😀
Click to view more pix and get the discount code 🙂
I’ve been on a liquid detox the whole week, as i’m undergoing colon hydrotherapy @ Pure Health. There was another blogpost i wanted to post before this one… about WHY i chose to do a colon cleansing, but i’ll post that later cos this whole week has really been about me and everything is kinda all over the place.
It feels good tho… to concentrate on preparing my own liquid meals and taking care of my body and mental health. I’ve never felt better in the past 5 years… (except when drunk or on holiday). I’ll be adding to this post bit by bit. I didn’t write about Day 1 or Day 2 cos i was just concentrating on myself, but i’ll add it in later when i can 🙂
Day 3:
Wow. I didn’t set my morning alarm the night before so i could sleep as long as my body wanted to, and i slept for ALMOST 12 hours!!! From midnight to 11:30AM! I had so many insane dreams rolled into one night, more than i’ve ever encountered (that i can remember).
I dreamt that Cammy came to pick me up in a white car, and Cameron was strapped in the passenger seat. Instead of stopping, she tried to bang me down for fun! Luckily i had superhuman strength and managed to hold the car off while scolding her. I was quite annoyed in the dream tho!
I dreamt about how Tongue in Chic became so successful that Jia Wei and Claudia had a circus tent with revolving floors where they’d do awesome fashion shows and throw other performances as well. I bumped into Yuna going for an audition in the tent, and other ppl like Reza, JP, and other peeps i can’t remember were all congregating there for shows.
I dreamt that Aps was driving an old Proton Saga (like Clem’s previous car) and tried to avoid a roadblock by driving through someone’s mansion while they were celebrating Chinese New Year.
I dreamt one of my ex boyfriends became a model and asked my opinion which of his cover shots i thought looked best -_-
This was my favourite > I dreamt that i was on a beautiful beach which wasn’t very big but the sky was super blue and sand was perfectly clean and yellow. There were lots of people around, so a friend and i found a more empty spot where i offered to walk back to where we were to buy some food and drinks. I remember there were three types of cake in front of me and i picked two pieces so we could share both and try more! They were yummy. I also carried back two pints of a mixture of red wine + Guinness(?!?!). While i was trying to get the food and drink together, i bumped into so many people and they were distracting me but i just wanted to GET BACK to my beach spot to relax. Finally got back and realised there were 2 butlers standing every 10 metres apart on the beach so i didn’t have to leave my spot anymore. I played with my hula hoop for ages and it wasn’t too hot nor too cold on the beach. I remember thinking, “DAMN this is one of the best dreams ever! I get to play with my hula hoop while actually resting!”
Had other dreams too but lazy to write the rest, not keterlaluan interesting.
When i woke up, i thought about how great a sleep i had… and had all these emotions that i remember feeling as a child course through my body. It was so weird yet wonderful. I don’t know how to explain except this FEELING of being a child again.
I felt so happy and grateful for such a great sleep. Then thought about how silly my dreams were and started laughing to myself in bed. Oh my goodness! I can’t remember the last time i laughed to myself in the morning when i woke up…
Made my juices, went for a massage at Energy Spa (Ida is so awesome… i want to return during CNY just cos), then straight to my appointment at Pure Health. I was really optimistic that it would be a breeze, but today was rather tiring! Irene said it’s cos the water is going further up my colon and working hard to get toxic bits that have been there for ages… There were a lot of bubbles in the tube today and she said it’s gas trapped in between my waste against my colon wall, that gets released when the waste is released. She also mentioned its a sign of someone whose body is very toxic and consumes too much cheese or alcohol -_-
Man. I don’t know how to say this but the amount of bubbles i released into that tube really grossed me out. I can’t believe i’ve had that much gas stuck in me for YEARS. WTF. Am seriously reconsidering how much alcohol i’m gonna put in my body from now on…
I also got a vibrating machine to hold against my stomach to help dislodge the waste. I felt kinda nauseas and Irene said it’s cos the water is pushing up my extra gas deep inside my colon, and the gas pushing up obviously makes me feel sick.
Ah i was super tired after the session today… totally passed out in the infrared bed.
Wendy got me to take this Skin Carotenoid Score test – which basically measures the amount of antioxidants (containing nutrients) in my body. There are 5 things that affect one’s SCS score = 1) diet; 2) lifestyle; 3) supplements; 4) genetics; and one more i can’t remember whoops.
So this machine that is used is called the Pharmanex BioPhotonic Scanner and was awarded the Nobel Prize.
I place my hand against it for 2 minutes, and get to see my score immediately.
Wendy said that anything below 50 is fail.
So i said, “So if i get below 50, i fail at life.”
She’s so nice to go, “No…”
Anyway, guess what i got… i thought i’d get around 40-something. Or 30-something if i’m unlucky…
I got 24!
Oh my @#($*#@(*
I barely registered what Wendy was saying to me after, cos i couldn’t stop the sentence screaming in my head, “I can’t believe i got 24!!!”
I asked her how much she got the last time she measured, and she said 73. Her son scores a 93.
Oh man. I can’t believe i used my human battery power to that level.
In 2013, i registered KinkyBlueFairy as a company and started my own business – to deal with my blog earnings and jobs in a more organised manner, get on interns and contributors, start an online store, and conglomerate all my other projects under one roof i.e. PR, social media strategy, emceeing, event styling, etc.
Of course i was a bit terrified of doing it all at the beginning. Before i registered my company, i made a list of all the things i had to do to get to where i envisioned myself to be – and the list was so long it put a real damper on my spirits. There was so much to do! Where was i gonna start?! I don’t even know how to do task numbers 3, 5, 24 and 348!! Plus there’s only one of me! SCARY!! AHHH!!!
Yup. That’s how i felt for a while.
In the end i learnt how to take baby steps. I don’t know when i started overthinking things i wanted to do, i used to just dive right in. Now i felt fear… maybe it was fear of losing money. Fear of failure. Fear that i wasn’t good enough. Fear that i was overestimating my abilities.
Starting a business sucks up a lot of time… but i still wanted time to spend with Clem, my family, friends, and myself. In the beginning, i had very little time for either.
I stopped trying out new recipes and started cooking out of necessity to eat,
i stopped taking my mum out for random weekday lunches,
i stopped having time to have lunch by myself which i love,
i stopped working out regularly,
i stopped having time to eat my evening snacks and got hungry and grouchy,
i stopped having the house cleaned and laundry done as often as it needed.
It was chaotic. I felt like crap. So now, i make up my own rules. My company, my rules right? Why not! Isn’t that the whole point of running one’s own business? I didn’t quit working for other people just so i could work for myself under the same regulations. I told myself: This isn’t going to work. I’m gonna make some changes and CREATE the life i WANT.
As it is, i already implement a work day that starts at 10:30am. Because i don’t see the point of everyone sitting through morning traffic and wasting time.
Just recently i started a practice where one day a week, everyone works from home (on the same day). People get to save a bit on petrol and toll, and i personally think it’s great for the soul to work in solitude once in a while.
There is a point where i figure i’ve made enough money for the week, why push it? How much more do i need? What i need, what we ALL need, is time with our friends and family and ourselves to make us happy! And when we’re happy, we’re definitely gonna be much more productive at work.
There are times when i hit a wall when it comes to a particular problem and i have learnt to be outspoken and unabashed to ASK questions and for help. I never used to be like that. I find that i receive the most solace for my problems from women. Women who are like me, and women whom i’m trying to be like.
I think it’s because us women understand how more difficult it is to run a business while running a home at the same time! You don’t see men having to sort out the cleanliness of the house or make notes to top up household products and food stuff while juggling cooking and socialising in the same week! Speaking of girl power, i just remembered Beyonce’s documentary Life Is But A Dream. Watch it!
There’s also a local website called Shine On that features Malaysian women who are doing their own thing, and it’s so inspiring to discover so many women out there reaching for their dreams.
I read an interview with actress/singer Adibah Noor on how she was a school teacher who opted for a school in a less desirable area, how she was a big sister to the students, and that she admired them for their stories that they shared. She later went on to compete in singing competitions, try her hand at copywriting, and translating for a corporate company, before performing on stage and on screen today! What an amazing story… i didn’t know there was so much behind her journey and you can really feel how much she went through discovering herself when you read it. You can read it *here*.
I even discovered new women in business on Shine On (under Street Savvy) – like Juwita who runs a carpentry and antique business, Tee Reei who started gourmet popsicle brand The Potong, and many more. On each of their pages, you can interact with them and ask them questions on how they started their business or anything you want to know to get your own off the ground. Think of it as a forum or chatroom, cos you just need to connect via your FB account to chat or even give words of encouragement.
If you’re a woman in business yourself, you can join in their ranks to inspire other women by applying to be featured. They’re always looking for inspiring business stories, awesome ideas or great business models to share with the community. All these stories in turn will inspire young or new women interested in pursuing their passion! 😀 So even if you just started out and feel shy that you haven’t accomplished enough yet, don’t be! The main thing is that you ALREADY STARTED which is the first major difficult step. Tell people about it and challenge your own confidence. Your contribution could change another woman’s life without you even knowing it 🙂 Click on the *Be Featured page here* to fill in a simple form to get started.
All these activities are spearheaded by Shine On, who is basically creating a community of Malaysian women who run businesses, and those who are interested to start their own (Shine On posts articles *here* on the nitty gritty on starting your own business).
If this is all getting you pretty excited about starting your own business in 2014, have a look at their Let’s Get Down To Business page – it’s filled with in-depth articles and PDF files you can dl on all these topics like how to get your own web domain, how to set up a website to display products, postage queries, how to keep track of stock, how to monitor your expenses, and even on taxes! There’s a lot to read there that’s really helpful which i WISH i had before i started mine!
Shine On is a platform created by Libresse, which i think is a really cool idea (and i wish i thought of it first haha) cos it’s so awesome to bring women in business together where we can inspire and be inspired! There are a lot more pages and info to Shine On than i mentioned, just go explore it for yourself *HERE*.
