I actually have this nice post all planned out…
With pictures of all my hairstyles for the past four years
Of course… it’s taking me longer than i expected to compile the whole damn list (I myself underestimated the number of it :p)
I’m more than halfway through
I’ll get it done this weekend :p
Along with details on the event, sponsors, charities and how you can contribute too

So new things i’m experiencing being bald:

1) Nobody said your clothes get stuck to you

Yeah.
The pillowcase was sticking to my head a bit when i slept
“Yeah that happens,” someone said when i voiced it out
Ew
Does that mean i sweat on my head and it sticks??
0_o

While pulling on my top this morning,
it got stuck on my head stubble and i thought,
“Shite, damn, that’s a first!”

2) To moisturize? Or is that out of the question?

I was applying my current skincare of choice (Estee Lauder) – serum and moisturizer,
when i cocked my head to one side and wondered,
“Should i moisturize my head? Or… i don’t have to..? Damn…”

3) I have to keep out of the sun

The first (and only) person i MMSed my picture to was Milcah, my hairstylist
She called and adviced me to keep out of the sun,
“Because some people have their hair stop growing after they shave and they go into the sun. Please wear a cap.”
“DAMN I WILL.”

4) My thoughts on how humans are meant to have hair

It’s never a right temperature right now
Maybe because i’m new to it
But it’s either too cold or too hot
I sat with a scarf over my head in the office during most of the day cos my head felt SO COLD
And outside, it felt KETERLALUAN hot when i was in the sun
(but then i’d remember what Milcah told me and quickly cover up)

5) People DO stare. A lot.

While walking outside the office, and at my neighbourhood bar…
Hell, i haven’t even been out that much cos i don’t have time
And strangers are staring constantly, giving me wtf expressions
I usually pretend oblivion and put on a straight face that if i hear them saying anything, I WILL BEAT THEM UP

6) I cannot wear girlie clothes right now

I’m having a fashion crisis.
I can’t wear something that’s too girlie i.e. dresses, cos i look like i’m confused
A confused transgendered kid
It was different when i had short hair… cos i would compensate my girlie-ness by wearing skanky/sexy clothes
Not when i try on sexy clothes, i just look… confused -.-
And there’s nothing wrong with confused people
Just that i know what i am…
Really…

7) I don’t think i will be showing my face in church

Not like i have been for the past two years
Bumped into some old church friends just now
Who gawked and went, “So… you coming to church for Christmas?”
It’s not like i got lazy to go
I tell everyone the truth on why i stopped going –
Because i started disagreeing with a lot of things that were being said in church
Such as disregard against homosexuality
And my unexplainable affinity towards Hinduism
But that’s another story
I just feel that as long as you do good unto others, reflect and nurture yourself… and be a good person because you believe in the act of it, and not out of fear
I don’t see how wrong one’s life can steer
(And i do believe in God. Thing is, i believe in the other Gods too 😉 … )

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Things people have said to me (those i can remember):

“I don’t think i want to walk around The Curve with you anymore.”
– Daddy

“OH MY GOD!!!”
– Mommy

“People paid 20k for you to shave your head? They have to pay 50k for me to shave my cock okay!!!”
– PassedOutBen

“I saw you just now… I thought i was seeing things -.-“
– Joleyn Chin

“C’mon! Gimme fierce! FIERCE!”
– DidiBuli

“… Did you suddenly reach a moment of enlightenment?”
– cannot remember

There are some others… some which i won’t write here cos it’d sound too vain
Or mean
I got into a couple of disagreements with friends who didn’t think it was necessary for me to shave my head

“Why do you have to do that? You can raise the money some other way!”
“… Yeah, but nothing wrong with this way… And i can raise it in a night instead of planning an event for days getting the same amount!”
“I don’t know… i think a woman should have hair. It’s so stupid.”
“… *Exasperated cos lazy to argue* It’s just hair. And it’ll grow back. And it’s not like it’s your girlfriend doing this!”
“Oh my god, if my girlfriend wanted to do this, i’d break up with her.”

See. That’s the thing.
WHY must (some) men require their girlfriend to look a certain way?
Shouldn’t it be what their soul and character holds?
Physical beauty is but a temporary facade
For a while, *i* was getting worried myself, thinking, “Ah damn… dahlah i’m lacking men in my life. Now confirmed lagi nothing.”

Truth be told, i’ve recently started casually dating someone
Which is, hmm, out of the ordinary cos i don’t DATE in general
I just rarely find people i’m attracted to

This one, i’m attracted to, but know it’s not something that will last long
I’m just relishing in the enjoyment of each others’ company till the fire fizzles out

I msged him, “Maybe you should look at the picture i put online… and decide whether you still want to sleep with me.”
He replied that he wanted to tap me right then.

Haha, so yes, that made me feel good.

Hair or no hair, i’m still getting some action YES.