So i’ve decided to stay in Bangkok for 3 weeks, and i leave in 6 hours.
But even then, i’m coming back to KL in between for 48 hours to attend:
2 events, a shoot and an interview.
Cram gila.
But i’m not complaining, i’m totally loving it!

I’m in a good place right now… and i’m very happy.
During a conversation over lunch, i told Tong how i wake up every morning feeling happy and extremely fortunate.
He said that it was good, as not many people feel that way.
And after he said that, i felt even luckier!

I’m in a constant good mood, or if not smiling to myself like a mad person,
i’m at peace (i think!).
Even returning to bad drivers on KL roads and haze, after the brilliant blue Bali sky couldn’t faze me for more than 10 seconds.

I hope i’m not jinxing myself writing this!

I dunno, i just wanted to blar how happy i am,
and i’m not even in love or anything.
It’s like, i have that feeling i had before when i was in love,
but this time, there’s noone in the picture but me and Life.

After lots of unintentional reflection in Bali,
i understand how so many things around me are temporary.
And how i should embrace as much as i can.

I’ve started losing interest in materiel things.
Don’t get me wrong, i still love to shop
But i don’t place as much importance on it as i used to.
Last year, i thought to myself that when i have 5k to blow,
I’d get myself a designer bag.

This year, i had 5k to drop on something and reward myself,
But i didn’t want a designer bag anymore.
If i had to choose between a bag and a trip,
i’d much rather take a trip.
So i’m starting to save for a Euro trip in May 2010.
I’ve been asking friends around how much i should put away and got quotes from 15-20k.
Milcah lagi best, quoted me 21k for a week -_-

“21k in a week?! What the frick did you spend on??”
“Oh, cos we stayed at the Hilton, etc”
“Milcah. I’m not staying at the Hilton okay!” 

Trips aside, i’m also starting to slowly get rid of things that i love,
but things that i feel will benefit other friends.
Like certain books, clothes i know they like, etc.

I don’t need all these things, i tell myself.
And hoarding them is not bringing anyone additional happiness.
I feel like Life is already giving me so much,
that i need and want to share this.

I feel it has to go around.

In some ways, i’ve managed to reignite how i was when i was younger,
and i’m so happy i managed to do it.
I’ve not ‘made and given’ away anything for ages
(i used to make SO many cards and funny things in school)
and just recently found myself gleefully packing Bali party packs to give to a few friends.

Wow that turned out to be some long rambling!

End of the story is: I feel that when the Universe is giving me so much,
i don’t want to be greedy / lose the plot / fuck it up.
So i try to give back in other ways, and it feels fantastic.

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A year ago: i had long hair. Temporarily.
2 years ago: i blogged bout backpacking thru Kintamani, Bali
3 years ago: i was in Milan
4 years ago: i got quite angry at annoying readers. Nowadays i don’t get angry anymore 
5 years ago: my first ad (that i wrote) got aired on radio. And it was nothing like the original idea -_-

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