A Cosmic Miracle.

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After hiding indoors (read: recuperating) for most of Sunday, i ventured out for dinner with my family, then to chill out over wine with PassedOutBen.
We spoke about love (again).
It seems to be our topic of the moment these days.

In between bouts of that, was blahing about parties and people we saw throughout the week.

“You know what,” i brought up, thinking about all the conversations i’d had this week, “It doesn’t matter how successful or famous you think someone is, but they’re all seriously fucked up about love.” I went on to elaborate on some people we knew who’re always in the limelight, but take the light away, and they’ve all got their heartbreak problems underneath. Just the same as you or me.

Of course it takes time to get to know someone, and have them open up to you especially if they’re extremely private people, but hearing individual stories about heartbreak made me want to cry with them.

I react the same if a situation is vice versa – when people tell me how they proposed to their fiancess/wives, or drama on how everything worked out in the end. Their stories and expression get to me and I end up clasping my hands, grinning from ear to ear going, “I’m sorry, i’m sorry, my face hurts cos i’m smiling so much cos i’m so happy for you!”

This is a beautiful short story by Haruki Murakami which i’d like to share. Someone pulled the book out of the shelf, made me sit, and read it one night, to which i teared.

On Seeing The 100% Perfect Girl One April Morning by Haruki Murakami
One beautiful April morning, on a narrow side street in Tokyo’s fashionable Harujuku neighborhood, I walked past the 100% perfect girl.

Tell you the truth, she’s not that good-looking. She doesn’t stand out in any way. Her clothes are nothing special. The back of her hair is still bent out of shape from sleep. She isn’t young, either – must be near thirty, not even close to a “girl,” properly speaking. But still, I know from fifty yards away: She’s the 100% perfect girl for me. The moment I see her, there’s a rumbling in my chest, and my mouth is as dry as a desert.

Maybe you have your own particular favorite type of girl – one with slim ankles, say, or big eyes, or graceful fingers, or you’re drawn for no good reason to girls who take their time with every meal. I have my own preferences, of course. Sometimes in a restaurant I’ll catch myself staring at the girl at the next table to mine because I like the shape of her nose.

But no one can insist that his 100% perfect girl correspond to some preconceived type. Much as I like noses, I can’t recall the shape of hers – or even if she had one. All I can remember for sure is that she was no great beauty. It’s weird.

“Yesterday on the street I passed the 100% girl,” I tell someone.

“Yeah?” he says. “Good-looking?”

“Not really.”

“Your favorite type, then?”

“I don’t know. I can’t seem to remember anything about her – the shape of her eyes or the size of her breasts.”


“Yeah. Strange.”

“So anyhow,” he says, already bored, “what did you do? Talk to her? Follow her?”

“Nah. Just passed her on the street.”

She’s walking east to west, and I west to east. It’s a really nice April morning.

Wish I could talk to her. Half an hour would be plenty: just ask her about herself, tell her about myself, and – what I’d really like to do – explain to her the complexities of fate that have led to our passing each other on a side street in Harajuku on a beautiful April morning in 1981. This was something sure to be crammed full of warm secrets, like an antique clock build when peace filled the world.

After talking, we’d have lunch somewhere, maybe see a Woody Allen movie, stop by a hotel bar for cocktails. With any kind of luck, we might end up in bed.

Potentiality knocks on the door of my heart.

Now the distance between us has narrowed to fifteen yards.

How can I approach her? What should I say?

“Good morning, miss. Do you think you could spare half an hour for a little conversation?”

Ridiculous. I’d sound like an insurance salesman.

“Pardon me, but would you happen to know if there is an all-night cleaners in the neighborhood?”

No, this is just as ridiculous. I’m not carrying any laundry, for one thing. Who’s going to buy a line like that?

Maybe the simple truth would do. “Good morning. You are the 100% perfect girl for me.”

No, she wouldn’t believe it. Or even if she did, she might not want to talk to me. Sorry, she could say, I might be the 100% perfect girl for you, but you’re not the 100% boy for me. It could happen. And if I found myself in that situation, I’d probably go to pieces. I’d never recover from the shock. I’m thirty-two, and that’s what growing older is all about.

We pass in front of a flower shop. A small, warm air mass touches my skin. The asphalt is damp, and I catch the scent of roses. I can’t bring myself to speak to her. She wears a white sweater, and in her right hand she holds a crisp white envelope lacking only a stamp. So: She’s written somebody a letter, maybe spent the whole night writing, to judge from the sleepy look in her eyes. The envelope could contain every secret she’s ever had.

I take a few more strides and turn: She’s lost in the crowd.
Now, of course, I know exactly what I should have said to her. It would have been a long speech, though, far too long for me to have delivered it properly. The ideas I come up with are never very practical.

Oh, well. It would have started “Once upon a time” and ended “A sad story, don’t you think?”
Once upon a time, there lived a boy and a girl. The boy was eighteen and the girl sixteen. He was not unusually handsome, and she was not especially beautiful. They were just an ordinary lonely boy and an ordinary lonely girl, like all the others. But they believed with their whole hearts that somewhere in the world there lived the 100% perfect boy and the 100% perfect girl for them. Yes, they believed in a miracle. And that miracle actually happened.

One day the two came upon each other on the corner of a street.

“This is amazing,” he said. “I’ve been looking for you all my life. You may not believe this, but you’re the 100% perfect girl for me.”

“And you,” she said to him, “are the 100% perfect boy for me, exactly as I’d pictured you in every detail. It’s like a dream.”

They sat on a park bench, held hands, and told each other their stories hour after hour. They were not lonely anymore. They had found and been found by their 100% perfect other. What a wonderful thing it is to find and be found by your 100% perfect other. It’s a miracle, a cosmic miracle.

As they sat and talked, however, a tiny, tiny sliver of doubt took root in their hearts: Was it really all right for one’s dreams to come true so easily?

And so, when there came a momentary lull in their conversation, the boy said to the girl, “Let’s test ourselves – just once. If we really are each other’s 100% perfect lovers, then sometime, somewhere, we will meet again without fail. And when that happens, and we know that we are the 100% perfect ones, we’ll marry then and there. What do you think?”

“Yes,” she said, “that is exactly what we should do.”

And so they parted, she to the east, and he to the west.

The test they had agreed upon, however, was utterly unnecessary. They should never have undertaken it, because they really and truly were each other’s 100% perfect lovers, and it was a miracle that they had ever met. But it was impossible for them to know this, young as they were. The cold, indifferent waves of fate proceeded to toss them unmercifully.

One winter, both the boy and the girl came down with the season’s terrible inluenza, and after drifting for weeks between life and death they lost all memory of their earlier years. When they awoke, their heads were as empty as the young D. H. Lawrence’s piggy bank.

They were two bright, determined young people, however, and through their unremitting efforts they were able to acquire once again the knowledge and feeling that qualified them to return as full-fledged members of society. Heaven be praised, they became truly upstanding citizens who knew how to transfer from one subway line to another, who were fully capable of sending a special-delivery letter at the post office. Indeed, they even experienced love again, sometimes as much as 75% or even 85% love.

Time passed with shocking swiftness, and soon the boy was thirty-two, the girl thirty.

One beautiful April morning, in search of a cup of coffee to start the day, the boy was walking from west to east, while the girl, intending to send a special-delivery letter, was walking from east to west, but along the same narrow street in the Harajuku neighborhood of Tokyo. They passed each other in the very center of the street. The faintest gleam of their lost memories glimmered for the briefest moment in their hearts. Each felt a rumbling in their chest. And they knew:

She is the 100% perfect girl for me.

He is the 100% perfect boy for me.

But the glow of their memories was far too weak, and their thoughts no longer had the clarity of fouteen years earlier. Without a word, they passed each other, disappearing into the crowd. Forever.

A sad story, don’t you think?
Yes, that’s it, that is what I should have said to her.

19 Responses to A Cosmic Miracle.

  1. Fong says:

    I love this one … ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. Mosey says:

    Haruki Murakami is a fantastic writer! If you love his stuff, try reading Sputnik Sweetheart! Totally awesome!

  3. jac says:

    awwww….. *sniff*

  4. lynnz says:

    wah. you. type. the. whole. damn. story.

  5. meeshlet says:

    Haruki Murakami is god. ๐Ÿ˜›

  6. JoyceTheFairy says:

    it’s already typed out online la… just copy

  7. elyne says:

    awwwww….. good stuff wei…

  8. missfab says:

    im so gonna hold my 100% perfect boy close by! forget waiting till im 30!

  9. F says:

    It really touched my heart reading the story again after 5 years. The book was given to me by someone very special which I met on a fine April day. Someone that took my breath away. Someone that took my heart away. Someone that was the 100% perfect guy for me. And I thought I was the 100% perfect girl for him.

    But now I know I can never be the 100% perfect girl for him because no matter what I do or how hard I tried I am never good enough for him. But I still stick around. Stick by him admist all the hurt that I am going true because my heart can only give that much love. And I know I am never going to be able to love someone else that much again.

  10. JoyceTheFairy says:

    F:… ouch… :*(

  11. lynnie says:

    if i wasnt reading this in college now, i think i might have just cried. it’s just so beautifully sad.

  12. hexy says:

    this sounds a bit like the movie “turn left turn right” starring takeshi kaneshiro

  13. Fei says:


    oooh Haruki Murakami is sooooo awesome! i tell you, some people comment that he is mental, but i totally disagree, what he writes reveals our deepest secret that we may not even realize! ANYWAY, he is so good, i bought some of my fav book of his in both mandarin & english yo!!~~ reading his books made me wanna take up japanese, so i can add that to the collection!~ its awesome!

    im gonna go read ur whole post now, just now terlalu beria-ria want to share comment, hehehe…

  14. elle says:

    glad to know that others get emotional when they here about people’s heartbreak stories cause i used to think i was crazy getting upset over them.

  15. joe says:

    F: If you love him, then leave him. You’re depriving him of the 100% girl you can’t be for him and that he might find, if only you aren’t hanging around.

    Instead, let’s get together and have dinner under a balmy sky, with Argentinian white wine and cast random fairy spells.

  16. Erisha says:

    So sad, so touching. Yet so beautifully written.

    And to F’s comment, wow that is something so hurtful that u have to live with.

  17. feryx says:

    hey joyce.. I love that story. I read it a long time ago and i’ve never forgotten it. I somehow believe that yes there might be someone out there who fits us.. maybe not perfectly.. not someone who completes us but someone who compliments us. Because saying we need someone to complete us implies that we’re lacking something.. doesn’t it ๐Ÿ™‚ We’re all 100% perfect in our own ways

  18. feryx says:

    I read this so long ago but I never forgot it.. I think all of us are 100% perfect in our own ways ๐Ÿ™‚ and to find someone who completes us is not wrong.. but in a way.. it implies that we’re all lacking in some way.. a love that compliments us.. is I gues 100% perfect ๐Ÿ™‚

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