Thank you for all your comments, i clicked it to read in the office yesterday but had to close it immediately cos i started crying in the office… and that’s like, not cool la, y’know.
Monday was the bad day.
I was hanging out with a close friend on Sunday night when Mummy smsed me on Steven’s condition which got me going again.
After i had composed myself, i said, “Hey thanks for being here for me…”
Him: “Well babe… i can’t really go anywhere. You’re in my apartment.”
Me: “…….. -_- ……….”
Monday we took him to the vet, did some tests and discovered he has organ infection – liver and kidney.
So i was a bit in the middle of whether to put him to sleep – Mummy said we should and Daddy thought otherwise.
I leaned more to the idea of euthanasia, till Ash called to tell me her dog had the exact same problems, plus our dogs are around the same age.
So we’ve decided to hospitalize him and hope for the best.
A lot, maybe too much, has been going on in my head this week.
Steven trauma. Work. And someone new i met. I’m calling him Detergent Man. Cos he smells like so.
Went for the Coach launch at Gardens with QueenKanch yesterday afternoon, and ’twas the best to see BubblyBel cos we haven’t seen her in so long.
Datuk Sharizat graced the event and shook our hands saying to us, “Wow! Are you people from KL? You’re all so beautiful!”
“Yes, we’re from KL,” i answered.
“You’re all so beautiful!” she repeated, moving on to shake others’ hands.
QueenKanch emo-ed, “What the fuck, so people in KL damn ugly is it?”
A kwailo woman next to us burst out laughing cos she overheard Kanch’s comment.
Went straight to get my hair done with Milca after that.
She told me how a few girls actually went to Qube asking for my cut and colour to which she refused.
“Oh! I didn’t know you don’t do the same thing for other people…” i was surprised.
“Of course la, you don’t want to walk down the street and see someone else with the same hairstyle right?!”
That’s hairstylist loyalty for you.
Rushed to Attic at 8pm for Fiona and Fem’s art exhibition launch.
Then to Mansion for Andrew’s Models 20th Anniversary to see the Tattle team.
I ended up being too absorbed with DetergentMan who was there as well, and didn’t layan anyone else… which everyone was not used to.
>_<
So we sat there for hours, and i made sure i introduced QueenKanch to the others so she wouldn’t get lonely
>_<
He finally had to leave and i went back to the troupe who were watching me from a table away the entire time.
-_-
All the gay boys pounced on me with questions and unabashed statements.
“So? Where’s he from?”
“Where does he work?”
“Is he rich or not? If not rich don’t need la!”
“He’s a cutie!”
“I think he’s okay only.”
I stared at all of them – “Walau, even my parents don’t ask so many questions in a go okay!!!”
In life you gotta learn to let go.. Move On..
with work, friends, relationship, pets etc. to embrace maturity ๐
Good luck with the new man or should I say that to him ;P
Ah… so that’s the secret to getting your attention. I’ll be swapping my cologne for a nice big bar of soap.
Hi, I was the ridiculously nervous girl who asked for a picture with u at the Gardens! Just wanna say thanks again for making my day! ๐
you are so happening & hilarious…
Really sorry to hear about your dog… I’d say, don’t decide for him… he may want to spend his last days with loved ones. That’s what we did for my dog, and she left peacefully in the company of the family. And we cherished the moments.
dog lover – i don’t think it’s as easy as that loh, it really is down to how well the dog is coping with the illness. if there’s no chance of it recovering, euthanasia, although a very painful and difficult decision to make, needs to be done for the dog’s sake.
in his last days, my dog couldn’t stand, could barely lift his head, and wouldn’t eat although i minced everything up and tried to feed him. the vet said to give him a few weeks to see if can get better, but to see the poor thing suffer so much, you really gotta wonder if it isn’t more humane just to let it go.
joyce, cry in the toilet la. bring a mirror and foundation to patch up face after ๐
Fairy romance! That’s fantastic –
and your gay boys simply want him to earn fabulous you!
Also – your hairstylist absolutely rocks.
no one else can rock red hair like you do, fairy!
stay fabulous!
Joyce, you don’t know me but I read your blog. I just wanna say that I think when you ‘let someone go’ as in euthenasia, it’s not because you wanna end their suffering but it’s because you want to end YOUR suffering. Men are not gods. Men are not supposed to control lives. That is why we have God for that. But having said, it’s your choice and what you believe in. Hang in there!
don’t be sad. remember that he will go to doggie heaven. what he leaves behind is but an empty shell that has outlasted its useful life. he will always love you and be waiting for you.
i have lost 3 dogs … 2 due to old age and 1 due to a *^!$#&@ vet who administered too much anaesthethic during surgery (he never woke up ๐ :(:( ). and it hurts, the skies darken, your days seem like it has no meaning.
don’t despair. his soul lives on and he remembers you.
Hi baby. It will all work out fine for Steven, no matter what, as long as you are with him. He’ll show you when he’s ready to go (tho it seems he has a little fight still left in him) so just make sure you love him as much as you can in the meantime and be with him when it’s time. It’s painful now but think of all the years of love and happiness you had with him, till you meet him again. I’m expecting to meet all 3 of my old dogs and my old cat again eventually and they’ll be young and frisky and happy. Hugs ๐
Joyce,
I hope Steven’s doing better today, i couldn’t sleep a wink when my sweetiepie was kept overnight after surgery. They always do better at home because of the tests being run in the hospital and all that horrid medication which really doesn’t do much.
My thoughts and prayers are with you. It’s tough and i can only imagine having gone through a horrid time with my furkid most recently.
Our babies are stronger than we think they are, this is making me tear..it’s so hard..i refuse to let my baby’s cancer kill her too!