Finally Human

So i finally get the gist on what it feels like to be human…
:p
Yes yes i guess i’ve mostly been living in my fairy dream world
Unperturbed by the reality of trouble and sadness

I’ve always somehow been able to be happy no matter what
And i’m losing that ability increasingly since a month or so back

I hope it’s just a phase
I hope it’s not because i’m growing older and unable to conjure up that spark
I hope it goes away

Nowadays everytime i close my eyes and fall into slumber
I have the most god-awful nightmares

I’m not used to having nightmares
Strange dreams including things like jumping clocks and shit like that, yea
But not scary freaky TheCell-like jitters

They come in fast short stories
Another beginning just as the last one ends
It’s tiring
It makes me not want to sleep alone
It makes me not want to sleep sometimes even
Perhaps this is why i look so goddamn tired even tho i *have* been getting enough sleep

I bumped into my trainer today and he said i looked exhausted and told me to rest more
I replied weakly that i have*

The other day i woke up because i punched the wall
How absurd is that
I was dreaming that an alien monkey attacked me and i tried to box him off

My fist lashed out in reality and just so happened the damn wall was right in front of me…

Sakitness i tell you
Fighter, someone said

*i know you have everything. Perhaps it’s time you email me since i don’t have your number. Ey.

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