For all sorts of things

The way i run things when it comes to work

i think i’m not doing things properly
cos things *should* be so much easier/less time-consuming
there’s never enough time for me to finish everything
there’s never a day/night i can leave work thinking, “i’m DONE”
cos it’s never done
i think i have no more life

The way i take care of my health

I never really gave a shit about my health before
Cos i always think, “Arh, i’m young, my body can take it, bla bla bla”
Till i went to the doctor’s on Monday and did a major overhaul

I got my throat and fever checked on
Then told her about my skin problems that have recently arisen
She said it’s eczema and prollie due from stress
I was like, “hmm okay, i’ve heard that before, i can take it”
cos hey, stress can be managed, it’s just a matter of thought

I got a PAP smear done
cos i haven’t got one since last year

Then i got a vaccine for prevention against cervical cancer
because every female should get one
and no matter how busy you are (like i am!)
you really SHOULD get your shots for it
admittedly it’s not cheap
RM400 per shot and one has to take 3 shots to complete the process
i was like, “DAMN. That’s a pair of shoes!!!”

:p

What else
Oh, then she inquired about my drinking
“How much do you drink?” she asked, due to certain medication i was being prescribed that does not go well with alcohol
“…. …. …  you mean… every day? … or like, per week?” i stammered, sounding like the absolute bimbo
“You drink every day? Then how much every day?”

Damn. I feel utter guilt admitting to her how much
Even though inside, i feel quite bangga that the amount is nothing like last time
“… Er, two three glasses a day..?”

After pap smear, cervical cancer vaccine, and all that
She told me that i have high blood pressure
Her words: Hmm. You have high blood pressure. You must take care… bla bla bla *goes on about precautions i have to consider*
Me in thought: High blood pressure?! I’m 25!! How can i have high blood pressure?!!!

Anyway, back to my points:

Enjoying time with friends

I got some really impactful smss and face-to-face talks from friends
whom i’ve been close to in the past year
saying how i’ve been different, a shadow, not in touch with emotions
theirs and mine

admittedly, i know i’m very impatient when people call me when i’m at work
i don’t have time
i don’t have time for petty talk
chitter chatter
for me, it’s just say what you want to say, it’d better be important, and get on with it

and i feel bad
cos i didn’t use to be like this last time
I was more carefree, talkative, and giving, in terms of time and self satisfaction

“You must not always think of the money, or else you’ll never stop.
“…………..”
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Hmm okay after all that writing, i forgot what my point was
Anyhoo, i had a great night ending with Deep and DreadlockedHenry making sure i’s okay.

I love them!