When Denial Is Not The Road
To Jalan Anymore
So i can’t fit into all my Zara cropped pants anymore.
I ignore and stash it to the back of my mind.
KinkyPugKevin stares at me while i’m driving, “Is that… your tummy?! You better take care ar…”
I hmm him and plot on what we’ll have for dinner and drinks.
Then my team manager says to me, “Yeah man, you’ve put on weight.”
I wave his comment away after a few seconds.
What does he know about looking good? 
This week DatinTini stared at me and nagged, “Joyce. You cannot already. You have to diet.”
I peer at her meekly and go ‘i know.’
Then the ultimate statement came…
… when my manicurist asked me whether i’m pregnant.
Pause for silent drama.
The moment the sentence ended on her lips, i stared back at her wide-eyed not knowing how to respond because, honestly, i’ve *never* been asked that before.
I looked down at my tummy self-consciously, doing that slowly-trying-to-suck-it-in-without-seeming-obvious thing.
I had this annoying fucking ‘wake-up’ call too… When I couldn’t fit into a my Levi’s anymore. & then some other Zara (damn they do make ’em tiny, don’t they?) pants. Pfft. And the tummy issue,too. Maybe age is creeping up with me & I can’t just eat anything I want without gaining an inch around me hips anymore! Well, at least my waist is still 23″. (I am so trying to console myself).
what nonsense ok
you’re still as skinny as ever
and you still look nice in a bikini
the manicurist needs to be slapped
dietsmiet
all the expectations of a girl to be stick thin and bulimic
i will hit kevin for having started the ball rolling and getting you self-conscious
Hahahahahaha . . . your raw honesty is really funny hehehehe ๐
HAHAHHAHA….this i gotta see.
kim: ugh next time i see you i let you see okay.
I went for a spa massage 2 years ago and the Balinese lady said to me, “Hamil ye?” and it’s been a constant laugh for my bf up till today.
No need to diet…just do sumthing to firm it up or something if you’re self conscious
rosalind: well i guess not exactly diet, just control certain foods and beer more. and wear loose tops ๐