Saturday July 16, 2005

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When You Realise

The Grudge Still Exists

How do you take to your exes who cheated on you?

For me, not very fondly at all
What do you expect me to do,
Send them a birthday card every year?
‘Hey Happy Birthday and thanks for cheating on me with two other girls’

Adam happened to have bumped into that particular ex of mine

Him and me happened three years ago when i was nineteen and naive
It ended very abruptly when i got enlightened by someone else that he was also seeing two other girls in different postcode areas
So i didn’t call anymore
And neither did he

Nice.

So there Adam and i were in the car today
Trying to clarify whether or not this was the same person we were referring to

“He’s skinny.”
“Yea he’s definitely skinny, like me.”
“He’s got huge eyes. Like a cartoon.”
“Yea yea that’s what i remember when i saw him, skinny with big eyes.”
“Hmmm… i don’t care whether it’s the same person or not. It was so long ago.”
“Well i think it must be, how many —–s can there be who dj in kl.”  He pressed on
“… true.”  I nodded my head slowly
“Was he having cancer already when you were going out with him?”
“WhaT?”  I wondered whether i heard right
“Wait. I think he got cancer *after* you went out with him cos it was last year.”  Adam said thoughtfully
“Perhaps its all the karma hitting back on him.”  I replied calmly
“Baby!!”  He slapped my thigh in the midst of driving in shock
“What?”  I rubbed my thigh in indignance, feeling just slightly bad
“It’s cancer we’re talking about!”
“Yea i know… but it makes no difference to me.”


Which is true.
I really liked the guy at that time.
I really really did.

The first time he called, i wondered why
The first time we went out, i remember he liked the material of the Dockers skirt i wore
The first time we kissed, i was so smitten i walked into my own gate after getting down from the car
The first time i went over to his house, i let him make love to me
The first time EeVon told me over the phone about what she knew, i physically stiffened and stoned before bursting into tears outside college

But that was three years ago

Apparently he got cancer
I seem unperturbed
And Adam probably thinks i’m evil

My reasoning is that
Whatever happens to me now will have no impact on him whatsoever
And likewise

24 Responses to Saturday July 16, 2005

  1. yishyene says:

    Aww.. I didn’t know it was that bad =(

    Maybe your wish came true when you said ‘I hope he dies’.

    Lalalalala…

  2. Anonymous says:

    Aww.. I didn’t know it was that bad =(

    Maybe your wish came true when you said ‘I hope he dies’.

    Lalalalala…

  3. looney_v5 says:

    man… bummer!

    sympathy for the devil is the hardest kind huh?? or in your case none at all..

     damn “emm kam yuen” right the feeling? no worries, all fairies go to heaven..

  4. Anonymous says:

    man… bummer!

    sympathy for the devil is the hardest kind huh?? or in your case none at all..

     damn “emm kam yuen” right the feeling? no worries, all fairies go to heaven..

  5. iamsiren says:

    u know..i understand adam’s reasoning that cheating on someone may not be as life threatening as cancer..
    BUT if i were you.. i guess i would feel the same way. He hurt you and u’d have to live with it, while he dies. ok.. maybe that didn’t sound right at all. all that trust gown down to shit just like that.. definitely not an easy thing to forgive.. *boing boing boings away*

  6. Anonymous says:

    u know..i understand adam’s reasoning that cheating on someone may not be as life threatening as cancer..
    BUT if i were you.. i guess i would feel the same way. He hurt you and u’d have to live with it, while he dies. ok.. maybe that didn’t sound right at all. all that trust gown down to shit just like that.. definitely not an easy thing to forgive.. *boing boing boings away*

  7. TaSia_ness says:

    dat’s sound so familiar to me. i can totally relate to u. my ex left me for another girl n i was so naive dat time dat he took EVERYTHIN from me. n now, he’s completely useless wit no jobs, no gfs, no future no nth. i knoe tiz sounds mean .. but erhmm..

    serve him right!

  8. Anonymous says:

    dat’s sound so familiar to me. i can totally relate to u. my ex left me for another girl n i was so naive dat time dat he took EVERYTHIN from me. n now, he’s completely useless wit no jobs, no gfs, no future no nth. i knoe tiz sounds mean .. but erhmm..

    serve him right!

  9. yish: eh… isn’t it normal for ppl to say that when someone is an ultra ass to them. ie ‘i hope she gets run over by a car’ And then now, ppl all emoing with me that i wished death upon him -_- ARGH

    looney: yay.. all dogs go to heaven… all fairies go to heaven…. and all looneys go to heaven’s best house party πŸ˜‰

    iamsiren: eh woman. yea that sounded damn wrong! 0_o But if i had the choice of going through it, i would, because he taught me how to filter through idiots like himself πŸ™‚

    tasian_ness: human nature at its core πŸ™‚

  10. Anonymous says:

    yish: eh… isn’t it normal for ppl to say that when someone is an ultra ass to them. ie ‘i hope she gets run over by a car’ And then now, ppl all emoing with me that i wished death upon him -_- ARGH

    looney: yay.. all dogs go to heaven… all fairies go to heaven…. and all looneys go to heaven’s best house party πŸ˜‰

    iamsiren: eh woman. yea that sounded damn wrong! 0_o But if i had the choice of going through it, i would, because he taught me how to filter through idiots like himself πŸ™‚

    tasian_ness: human nature at its core πŸ™‚

  11. j0sh_w says:

    He couldn’t commit to you completely and stay faithful, which shouldn’t be a hard thing to do. So I completely understand your indifference. Why be concerned with another’s well-being if that concern wasn’t returned in the first place.

    You’ve done nothing more than move along, which is the right thing.

  12. Anonymous says:

    He couldn’t commit to you completely and stay faithful, which shouldn’t be a hard thing to do. So I completely understand your indifference. Why be concerned with another’s well-being if that concern wasn’t returned in the first place.

    You’ve done nothing more than move along, which is the right thing.

  13. jellypixie says:

    damn, stupid xanga always server down.

    anyway, there are a lot of kids in africa who are suffering too… why not feel sorry for them instead of a guy who cheats…?

  14. Anonymous says:

    damn, stupid xanga always server down.

    anyway, there are a lot of kids in africa who are suffering too… why not feel sorry for them instead of a guy who cheats…?

  15. cherryone says:

    well..l used to have a bf for 5 years that l used to hate alot and sometimes l curse that something bad like cancer would happen to him one day in future. but that time l am still with him…..cos he was my first sweetheart.

    when times past..not all relationship is up to our estimation and yeah l do still regret cursing him cos in the end he just passed away 3 years ago from lung and liver cancer.he passed away in front of me…its not a easy thing.he regretted everyway he treated any girls he knows and while lm still next to him..he regrets heaps.

     people still do mistakes…and l do too as well. but lm sure that fella of urs (ex), would for sure remember u. when something happen to them…they will ask themselves what they had done wrong. its just life. anyway, smiles always. Life is too short.

  16. Anonymous says:

    well..l used to have a bf for 5 years that l used to hate alot and sometimes l curse that something bad like cancer would happen to him one day in future. but that time l am still with him…..cos he was my first sweetheart.

    when times past..not all relationship is up to our estimation and yeah l do still regret cursing him cos in the end he just passed away 3 years ago from lung and liver cancer.he passed away in front of me…its not a easy thing.he regretted everyway he treated any girls he knows and while lm still next to him..he regrets heaps.

     people still do mistakes…and l do too as well. but lm sure that fella of urs (ex), would for sure remember u. when something happen to them…they will ask themselves what they had done wrong. its just life. anyway, smiles always. Life is too short.

  17. laineylashes says:

    awh babe *bighugs.
    we all have that much affection for some people in our past sometimes. it’s okay, you’re not evil & i’m not the devil for saying that it’s okay :oP

  18. Anonymous says:

    awh babe *bighugs.
    we all have that much affection for some people in our past sometimes. it’s okay, you’re not evil & i’m not the devil for saying that it’s okay :oP

  19. nightstar says:

    a guy who cheats DESERVES testiscular cancer.case closed. *in full support of joyce*

  20. Anonymous says:

    a guy who cheats DESERVES testiscular cancer.case closed. *in full support of joyce*

  21. jellypixie: well i do… haha i’m not particularly feeling sorry for him. i do but in a miniscule dose -_-

    cherryone: thanks for sharing. love your comment the most. you’re so right, when something bad happens then they’d ask themselves what have they done wrong etc. but urm not like i cursed him or anything! Sorry to hear about your ex, it must’ve been very painful for you as well. Cheers.

    elaine: not that* much affection ey? heh

    nightstar:  …. eh…. even i wouldn’t say that la… a guy who cheats definitely deserves the same treatment back to him, but not freaking testicular cancer! That’s like, fucking huge difference.  -_-

  22. Anonymous says:

    jellypixie: well i do… haha i’m not particularly feeling sorry for him. i do but in a miniscule dose -_-

    cherryone: thanks for sharing. love your comment the most. you’re so right, when something bad happens then they’d ask themselves what have they done wrong etc. but urm not like i cursed him or anything! Sorry to hear about your ex, it must’ve been very painful for you as well. Cheers.

    elaine: not that* much affection ey? heh

    nightstar:  …. eh…. even i wouldn’t say that la… a guy who cheats definitely deserves the same treatment back to him, but not freaking testicular cancer! That’s like, fucking huge difference.  -_-

  23. disco_very says:

    my ex cheated on me, unfortunately i only found out a year after we broke up. way too late to confront him so i just cried and let it pass…

    so yeah, i sooooooo feel your apathy. sometimes the hurt is so bad it just kills some nerves.

    we are evil people. evil evil. but it’s not our fault karma works that way

  24. Anonymous says:

    my ex cheated on me, unfortunately i only found out a year after we broke up. way too late to confront him so i just cried and let it pass…

    so yeah, i sooooooo feel your apathy. sometimes the hurt is so bad it just kills some nerves.

    we are evil people. evil evil. but it’s not our fault karma works that way

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